How I Cultivated a Meditation Practice

Disclosure, I was always meant to find my back to meditation. It is something my energy already knows how to do. However, it did not come without its challenges. I still had to re-learn and re-discpline my human self after three decades of unconscious living and accumulation of energies. My old soul still had unprocessed, unresolved traumas to deal with in this life as well. My point is, is that while my process did not take long to re-master the art of meditation, I still learned how to start from scratch and learn it for my self, all over again. Here is the process I underwent.

Necessity
When I began meditation, I did not intend to start meditation. It happened naturally out of necessity. At the time I was undergoing some major changes and challenges in my life, which were actually the steps leading up to my eventual spiritual re-intiation. However it wasn’t necessarily the challenges, it was the inability to sleep peacefully through the night. I had tried every possible advice given on the internet, but nothing worked. Naturally, as I was undergoing a very difficult and stressful time in my life, my mind was overdrive and was racing through the night. I could not seem to power down. It felt as if my mind controlled me. Out of sheer desperation, I thought of meditation. I had looked into a local buddhist center that offered meditation programs. I went once and never seemed to want to return. Time pased and events happened. Not sure when exactly in the timeline but it all started with one winter’s day.

A Call
One morning, I woke up, and something told me to sit down on the floor of my bedroom, facing the window. So I sat, faced the window, and closed my eyes. I had no idea what I was doing, and I probably sat there for not even 10 minutes before I got up. It was uncomfortable to sit there for what felt like an eternity, even at just under 10 minutes. My mind was racing from one thought to another. It felt uncomfortable, challenging, and maybe pointless. What am I supposed to be doing? Other than just sit here with my thoughts?

Yet, something told me to keep going, not every day, but once and awhile. I’d muster up the strength to sit on my bedroom floor, facing the window, and close my eyes. Even if I didn’t prefer it, I felt it was best, that I had to do it. And so I did.

Experimentation
I kept at it here and there, contuining to sit with my thoughts. Maybe a month and a half in of occassional sittings on the floor, an aquaintance had suggested a metaphysical center that happened to be 5 minutes from my house. I decided to go, and in the new year, I took my first class on source energy channeling. I felt energy tingling in my hands and feet, and was intrigued. It reminded me of when I was a child and learned to feel the fire ball between my hands as my father taught me tai chi. I began to incorporate this awareness in my meditation practice.

Inspired by the class, I also started to listen to ‘high frequency’ music on my noise cancelling headphones. I don’t know, I just thought maybe this would help. And bonus, it would distract me from the mental thoughts. This temporary distraction actually helped me get comfortable with the practice of sitting down and closing my eyes, because it just felt like a more enjoyable experence to listen to music then listen to thoughts.

A Choice
Okay, so not everyone is going to experience this. This is why I disclose that I was always meant to reconnect with meditation as an existing capability, and as a larger aspect of personal path.
Anyways, it was a cloudy winter’s day in January. Maybe a week and a half after the source energy class. I was listening to my usual ‘high frequency’ heart chakra music on my noise cancelling headphones. Suddenly, an enormous, bright light floods the room and my vision. My body and heart is captivated. And I receive a powerful message. My body shakes, tears flowing, I cry uncontrollably, even when I try to stop or move my body, I cannot. The message is received, the light disappears, and I open my eyes. I did not know it at the time, but this would be a defining moment in my process. Turn back out of fear, or continue onwards and commit to the work. While not everyone will have an experience like this, the point of all of this is to say that ultimately, it is a choice. I received a powerful message, but it still was up to me to decide. It only serves as a strongly needed push, that I needed to focus and commit. Every person has a choice to keep going and continue doing the work, especially when deep down it is the healthiest and right thing to do. This can be applied in cultivating a meditation practice, or in spiritual work, or in anything in self and life.

Commitment
Over the next month, I incrementally increased the time and frequency of my meditation practice. Gradually, once or twice a week turned into every other day, and every other day turned into almost every day. Eventually the training wheels came off and I no longer needed the high frequency music to sit down. I noticed it was time to remove the headphones when the music started to feel like noise and a disturbance to the sense of peace of my mind.

I would let thoughts pass and go like cars driving by on a road. I let them pass, being mindful that there was no need to react or engage with every single thought. With time, the thoughts passed. And then with times they slowed down, and eventually they would sometimes come and sometimes not at all. I sensed that as I stopped giving or feeding it attention, it simply saw no reason to show up. It just needed to be let out, like airing out a really old, dark and dusty attic.

By months 2-4, I was meditating for 30 minutes everyday. I was also called back to Mexico to learn divination and family constellation work. The time here expanded and accelerated my meditation work by incorporating awareness of healing and divination. I began to intuively integrate those new experiences and perspectives to re-shape my meditation process through intuitive feeling and sensing. Being guided more by what felt right and natural in the moment. This was the early beginning of formulating a meditation practice that was uniquely for me, which would ultimately become the foundations for my energy meditation practices and teachings.

By months 4 and onwards, I was meditating for at least 1-hr everyday. Around this time, I was conscious that my spiritual awakening process was really underway. I had been called back to Mexico, eventually moving there and leaving my job behind in NYC. As I cleared more space and re-invested my self with even greater commitment to the process, I began to experience consistent contact with familiar higher energy beings (I suppose what everyone calls archangels…) for daily guidance and support. They had helped fast track my intiation, the opening, the energy purification process, and now the deeper healing and regeneration process in which my entire being and body would be purged and rebuilt. The entire energy system would be rewired and recreated a new. This happened not necesarily by them doing it for me, but through guiding me on how to do it and what to explore and consider. They also provided protection from other energies at the time as I was opening and rewiring. In total, the most intense first phase of the spiritual awakening process was about 7 months.

As I went deeper, my meditation process evolved to reflect the phases I was in. Meditation no longer was an isolated exercise, it naturally unfolded over time into a way of being throughout the day. So many other ‘meditative’ practices grew out of it as well, such as sweeping the floors (as I was cleansing), writing (to help process some of the meditations), free talking, singing, and dancing.

This journey, although intensely accelerated, is only one example of how meditation as a process can unfold. It we extend it out over a longer period of time, we can see how the work of meditation evolves through commitment, devotion, consistency, experimentation, curiosity, and openness to the unknown.