Spiritual Awakening Journey: IV - Divine Re-Connection
February comes around and late one night I stumble across a divination and family constellation retreat in Mazunte. I honestly don’t know how I found it or what I was even searching for, but I send a message that evening and a few days later I book the trip. It felt like it was something I needed to do. It was serendipitous as I knew that I was meant to return to Oaxaca. Not knowing what to expect, I opened myself up to further exploring the metaphysical realm in one of the most raw and wild coastlines in Mexico. It called to me.
During this time in Mazunte, I learned divination practices—connecting with clairs, opening the akashic records, reading astrology, and undergoing family constellation experiences. I would ground myself in the ocean, soak myself in water and replenish my energy. We stayed at a beautiful, rustic sanctuary adjacent to Playa Mermejita. In the early mornings I would wake up to birds and the sound of the ocean, and in the evening by dim candlelight I would fall asleep to the waves crashing along the shore. I felt at peace and felt so much joy. I felt so much lighter. I was so happy. The most pure happiness I’ve felt in a really long time.
At the time, I was also being tested to ‘let go’ in my physical reality, mirroring my need to ‘let go’ internally. All sorts of strange events occurred around this time, confronting me with opportunities to ‘let go.’ I lost things—ipad at the airport, atm card in Mexico City, a notebook at the beach. These experiences were testing my ability to let go by taking away material things that I valued. It was an initation to the long release process that would follow in the following months. Can I willingly let go of something and believe that eventually something will return in its place? And indeed all of those items returned to me. I received my ATM card back the next day. My notebook was returned to me a week later. And my ipad at the CDMX airport was returned 2 months later. The strangest story was about the notebook. One day I was walking with a friend and I left all of my belongings on a spot on the beach. By the time we walked back it was already dark and we could not find the items. Eventually we found my belongings in a different place, everything was there except the notebook. For some reason I was so upset after, but I told myself to let it go. One week later I was at the same spot at the end of the beach. We were doing a ceremony as a group, and a girl walks over. She spoke Spanish and asked us what we were doing. I explained and asked if she would like to join. She sat next to me and a few minutes later she noticed the notebook next to me and asked if it was mine. I said yes and she gave me a look. In that moment I knew, no way. She proceeded to take out her phone and then showed me a photo of the very same notebook I lost a week ago. She told me she found it on the beach as she was walking by and that she had been holding on to it for a week because she felt like it was important. She told me she rarely walks down to the end of this beach, and she normally does not walk over to groups, but in the moment she felt like something compelled her to walk over and speak to us. I’ll never forget the story of how I reunited with my lost notebook and the wonderful woman named Daniella.
Mexico was where I really began to open up energetically and connect with the unseen energies of the divine. In this place it is where I began to be further initiated spiritually. I continued to have vivid dreams every night, waking up to remember every detail. In those dreams, I traveled to different worlds, places, eras, and stories. I’ve lived in an ancient civilization in the desert, hiding from attackers in an underground cave complex filled with ancient secrets. I’ve traveled to the depths of the ocean amongst seaweed trees and sea creatures. Increasingly, I’ve begun to notice my dreams will have a common theme or message. Sometimes centered around an existing pattern, belief, or inner conflict I might have, or it might show me a new possibility or idea to consider. What has recently developed has been waking up every morning with key takeaways. The moments leading up to when I awake, my unconscious has already summarized the key takeaway or lesson for me. I wake up knowing what I must do or meditate upon.
In my waking hours, I started to notice synchronicities everywhere. Events or coincidences will occur that seem unbelievable and make me laugh. I’m constantly seeing 711, 911, 1111 almost everyday, as signs and symbols of present energy. In my meditations, chakras are opening up and I am seeing colors emerge in my mind’s eye. I’m also starting to have visions of constellations and stars. I am starting to feel energy move through my body. And I’ve been receiving more and more messages and guidance from archangels and divine energies, making themselves more known and present in my daily meditations. Cats flock to me, like I have a cat signal calling out to all nearby cats. I’m more able to feel the energy of natural living things—like stones, plants, and animals—feeling its energy in my hands. Since I’ve begun my spiritual awakening, it also feels as if I have a direct line to an entire unseen world, and knowledge is downloaded into me. I look back at my old life and it feels like a distant dream. Feeling as if I’ve awoken from some long deep sleep or thick fog, only to now see an entirely unknown world emerging in full color and magic.