Spaciousness

Look up into the night sky and you will feel the overwhelmingly vast spaciousness that envelops us. The dark void illuminated with specks of light in every direction. When you sit still in the silence to observe the vast spaciousness of the universe, how does it make you feel? Do you feel drawn in? What do you remember?

In the laws of particle physics everything in the universe, yes this includes us humans, are made up of atoms. And the atoms that we are made of are 99.99999% empty space. Which means, we humans and everything in this world are 99.99999% empty space. Each atom is composed of a single speck of a nuclei surrounded by mostly empty space, and at the edge rapidly moving electrons create a cloud barrier of the atom. The nuclei is 100,000% smaller than the atom it is in. A common analogy is if the atom was the size of a stadium, the nuclei would be a peanut in the middle, and the electrons would be at the outside perimeter of the stadium. In between is just empty space. If all of the empty space was somehow removed, the entire human race would fit into the volume of a single sugar cube. So where does the body mass come from? It comes from energy.

Everything you eat, come into contact with, the environment you’re in, what you engage with produces radioactivity within your body. Energy is constantly generating within us and passing through us, including energy from the sun and even cosmic rays from outer space. The high energy radiation can cause subtle mutations in our genetics and is perhaps a major driver of evolution.

The composition of human beings share 97% of the same atoms found in the stars, particularly towards the center of the Milky Way Galaxy. We share the same building blocks of life of carbon, hydrogen, nitrogen, oxygen, phosphorus and sulfur.

Energy, is really the only thing that occupies us. Form is just a mere illusion. The illusion of electrons moving so fast it appears to be everywhere at the same time. The thing we touch and feel is not actually the thing itself, it is the repelling of the electrons between different atoms.

Humans and everything in this world are really just stardust, empty space and energy.

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I’ve been thinking a lot about space lately. The act of creating space within, the quality of space all around, the space above in the night sky. Space has taken place inside of me. I’d like to defy the perception of space being “empty.” It may be “empty” but it is meaningful.

Realizing a sense of spaciousness begins with creating space internally.

Creating space within began with an intense shedding process. Shedding involved letting go of everything I once knew, believed or clung to to maintain an identity or sense of self. I questioned everything. I broke things. I teared things down. I said no to things I once wanted. I defied all beliefs, whittling them down to the seed of the idea. Getting to the truth of why I held on to certain beliefs and ideas as a way to form a sense of self. I had to relinquish control of the ego before the shedding process. And this time was interspersed with periods of confusion, frustration, or nothingness. I had to shed the many layers of my identity and concept of self, stripping myself bare, down to my core, as a way to discover who I truly am.

Once I stripped myself bare, I was left with nothing, with space. And I began to feel a sense of spaciousness inside. Feeling space within feels like being a feather and a rock at the same time. I felt incredibly light and solid, rooted yet able to fly. It felt liberating and peaceful, expansive…full of possibility. I was able to be more in tune, perceptive, connected with the energy inside and around. Energy was more able to move through me. By creating space it allowed for more energy to fill it.

I remember shortly after, immediately trying to fill the space. Unconsciously, I was filling the space to continue old programming of staying busy and being productive. My body intervened and I also went through periods of ascension sickness. It took me three rounds before I eventually understood, I had to stay put. The first few weeks were hard for me. I really hated what I perceived as boredom. I was frustrated and upset about it which meant there was something for me to learn. Why was I struggling with this so much? The energy at the time was encouraging me to stop doing and to notice and appreciate the space I created. It wanted me to continue the work of introspection and uncovering patterns (e.g. the ‘be productive’ programming) that still needed to be discovered. My body was also going through a period of integration, awakening and regeneration. After an intense shedding period, it needed to rebuild itself to accommodate the shift in frequency.

What I learned in this cycle was that after shedding and letting go, I had created space and it was time to sit in it. Time and space to uncover and release remaining programming and patterns. Time and space to rest and integrate. Time and space to contemplate what I actually wanted moving forward. If I mindlessly pushed forward to fill the space, I would have probably filled it with the same junk. Now I had an opportunity to enjoy the spaciousness.

Patience was a major lesson here. I have never been a patient person but I am learning to be more patient. I am learning that there is no need to rush, there is nothing urgent for me to do, there is nowhere I need to be, and there is no need to worry about the future. The only thing I can do is to be present in the now, and to accept what happens as it comes in the moment. I’m learning to trust and let go of control.

Space, I believe, is the thing that will save us all. It can be a container but it can also be expansive. It is the cushion that allows us to bear witness to our true selves and the truth of our expression. Recognizing and honoring our true nature of spaciousness is what allows us to make true decisions and act, not as an immediate reaction to external influences, but from a place of feeling and intuition within. Allow ourselves patience and grace to operate from a foundation of personal power, instead of immediately giving it away to external influences and people. We can allow ourselves space and time to decide how we want to spend our energy.

Perceived space, silence, ‘nothingness’ is not something we should judge or deem as negative. It is a state of life and it exists all around us and in us whether we accept it or not.

The clutter, noise, chaos, all of the STUFF for consumption is just an external representation of the clutter that exists within the mind. When people are used to a state of noise they attract more noise.

We tend to fill empty spaces in our lives because we’re so afraid of them being left unfilled. Perhaps because we need to fill it to feel whole. We’re constantly told and programmed by society to believe that we are not whole. That we need stuff. And we need to constantly buy stuff and chase shiny objects and need other people to make us feel whole and complete. But the goal of this work is to return to our true selves and realize our inherent wholeness.

The key here is awareness and letting go of what is toxic to our well-being. Be aware of what you put your energy towards, what you consume, what you watch, read, listen to, interact with, converse with, etc. It is all a part of the energy exchange. Having awareness, boundaries and filters allow us to decide what goes into our sacred temple of space within, while still interacting and exchanging with the world.

Space is beautiful, space is peace, space is expansion and growth, space is grace, space is an act of love for yourself and others.

How can you hold more space in your life?