Shedding

Shedding in a spiritual awakening is a process of excavation, processing, clearing, cleansing, and releasing of old buried energies in the human energy system. The energy activation of a spontanenous spiritual awakening initiates the shift in consciousness, allowing the individual to see themselves from a higher perspective as they continue to release attachments to old energies. It is up to the individual to commit to clearing out space to make way for a new way of being and perceiving.

To shed is to clear out the old, remove waste, and make space for the new. Essentially, it is internal ‘waste management.’ It is a critical and necessary phase of internal work that is done on a reoccuring and cyclical basis. Just like the seasons of natural life, the human energy system and body is meant to clear out the old and make space for the new to be re-born. In a spiritual awakening process, the individual will need to learn how to shed in order to re-align with a natural way of life. In doing so, they will be able to learn how to shift to higher levels, perspectives, energy frequencies, and ways of being.

The following outlines a brief summary of my earliest shedding cycle in the beginning phases of my spiritual awakening process.

The first shedding cycle was initiated by my willingness to let go of my old self and life when I was called upon to do so during a natural period of destruction, as well as my ongoing commitment to meditation and energy channeling as a daily practice. Through these cultivated practices, I was able to listen to nature and was guided in my process even when I did not know what I was doing. After being forced into stillness after my accident, I sat in the space of nonaction for a few months, focusing on my inner work to begin deeper excavation and processing work. Shedding (exacvation and processing) of old experiences and emotions represented the first half of the work. Then, shedding reached another phase of work when there were no more experiences and emotions left to reveal and feel. This next phase of shedding focused on the excavation and processing of unconscious programming.

During this time, it was a quiet yet mind-altering experience. I was half-conscious, half-unconscious to the changes that were unfolding within me. I noticed subtle shifts or would have sudden realizations that seemed to come out of nowhere. I was generally confused most of the time. I questioned everything: my identity, beliefs, values, desires, wants, needs, thoughts, behaviors, etc. I began recognizing patterns, existing programming, and conditioning. All of which surfaced for re-examination and understanding.

Shedding is a cycle in which I shed all of the things, or really energies, that I had adopted, incorporated, and reinforced over the course of 3 decades of my life. Most of it, I never consciously agreed to nor necessarily desired. Through the clearing of the fog of old experiences and emotions, I was able to gain a higher perspective. It was as if I had a bird’s eye view, and my entire self and program was laid out like a deck of cards, now available to be seen as a whole and up for systematic re-evaluation. I was given a period of time in which I was able to surface, see, realize, understand, and examine the beliefs, values, programming, patterns, thoughts, and behaviors that served as the foundation of my operating system. I questioned everything. I broke things. I tore things down. I let go. I said no to things I thought I once wanted or needed. I challenged all of my existing beliefs and values. I whittled everything down to the seed of its Truth. Getting to the root cause of why I held on to certain beliefs and ideas as a way of reinforcing a sense of self, a sense of safety, belonging, and purpose. I also had to undergo a process of breaking down my ego and relinquishing control over to soul and nature. This period was interspersed with a lot of moments of confusion, frustration, and nothingness. I had to release myself over to fear and uncertainty. Leaning into my fears, not away, and start listening to those quiet yet persistent questions that lived inside of me. It asked me to face everything I was afraid of, everything that would dismantle and destroy everything, and let it all burn to the ground. But I also had an inherent need to understand why everything existed, as everything was created for an unconscious reason. And in taking the time and extra effort to understand and learn, I was then able to finally accept it and truly let it go. It was very hard to admit when something, someone, or really anything was no longer aligned with who I am becoming, where I’m going, and what I truly desire deep down. It asked me to choose to see the Truth with brutal honesty, accept that I am radically transforming, while also not knowing what the plan is and where it’s all going. Shedding involved letting go of everything I once knew, believed, and clung to to maintain an identity and sense of self. I had to shed the many layers of my identity and concept of self, stripping myself bare to the bones, as a way of re-discovering who I Truly am at the core. Through this process, the True nature of my natural soul emerged more clearly. Emerging beneath the rule of the ego and the layers upon layers of energetic grime, beliefs and programming that were forced upon me and that I adopted over the years since I was born. Shedding all of those layers allows one’s True self to step out into the light.